"Oh, good scholar,/I say to myself,/how can you help/but grow wise/with such teachings/as these-/the untrimmable light/of the world,/the ocean's shine,/the prayers that are made/out of grass?" - Mary Oliver




Sunday, September 5, 2010

leavings and arrivals.



Today is my last full-time day here at the farm, and I am truly astounded that it's come so quickly.

My leaving has been planned for a long time, as I'm about to start an Americorps position in Greensboro following a trip to WI that begins today....

but, honestly, I still feel rather torn apart and somewhat devastated!

This summer, just as every summer here at Cane Creek, has moved me, challenged me, frustrated me, enlivened me, and changed me, in the most essential and fundamental ways to who I am - as both a being and a farmer.

I know that it's the right time for me to move on, and this departure was 100% my choice (mostly motivated by the fact that I've only just graduated from school, and feel like I'd be limiting myself to not explore my many other passions).

But my heart is full of love for this world, and for Eliza, and for this land, and for my gardens, and I feel like I'm grieving this day in a way that's more painful than I'd anticipated.

I have lots of gaps to fill in describing my garden adventures this summer, and they will be filled as time moves forward and life becomes a little more centered. AND - there are so many more adventures to come!!

Thank you for your attention, and your care, and for reading the ramblings of a somewhat silly, but very alive 22 year old farm gal.

All my love, forever and always.

-Hailey